Tuesday, March 9

The long Road


"Always find the lesson if life's rough and tumbles," my father taught me.

I've made some pretty big mistakes in my lifetime. I don't allow myself hardly any margin for error. (That's quite a combination.)

So my logic runs something like this: Dear G-d... If we make mistakes, how can we still be on your path? If we make a wrong turn, turning our life into a completely opposite direction then Your perfect will, how can You make the space between those two divergent paths, merge? How can you redeem us? How can you provide ?

So I've already let go of my notion that there isn't a Divine will. There is! Woohoo! Because in my mind's eye, in my heart of hearts, I can sense that when I do good, my reward comes from doing it, from perpetuating positivity! Just the same, when I do bad, I struggle with how can I be forgiven? (Of course only through One) but in my search for what is truth, what is right and what would fill that gap between my humanity and searching soul...

A story:

I had back to back boudoir sessions out in Dripping Springs yesterday. It had been a rough couple of days. I didn't sleep the night before, I had a lot on my plate. You know, one of those days.

I didn't print out directions to the venue I had been to a handful of times already so I was just planning on winging it. Riiiight. With my lack of sense of direction??

So if you look on a map, from the way the crow flies Dripping Springs is close to due West from my house. I usually take all of these little roads that has me winding through subdivisions and passing cow pasture after goat pasture. It's really pretty! But you know, in that state of mind where I'm trying with everything in me to just glue my head on straight, I just hop on 35 and start driving north into Austin!

I pass Slaughter and it hits me. What the heck am I doing??? I panic. I should be going due west! I shouldn't have even gotten on 35! What a way to make a bad day worse-- late to my shoots! I look at the time and I have an hour to get there- plenty of time. Then I remember the main road in Dripping Springs is just south of 290... so if I just keep going North...
hey.
wait a minute.

You mean there is more than one way to get where I am going???? I still arrive at my destination??

Then I hear in my heart of hearts, a little voice. You went the wrong way... but you're still arriving at your destination... it's just going to take you a little longer. Like life... you make the wrong decision, take the wrong turn, but that doesn't mean you won't end up where you're supposed to. It just might take you a little longer... and you've never left My view...

Wow.

So I wiped away the tears and kept on my way. I arrived 15 minutes early and the shoots were freaking amazing. And to my question of "Have I ever left Your hand?" He responds oh so lovingly...

No, Lovely. You're just taking the long road...

2 comments:

rendog1977 said...

This is so true and a great lesson. I really needed that today.

Tami G. said...

I absolutely LOVE that. I know I say that with everything you do, but THIS is right on top of my {i heart Carli} fan list!! (lol) I need to read that AT LEAST once a day! Thank you, once again!! ~xoxo~