Friday, April 8

Finding the Presence of Light

Allow me to admit it:
I've been in a funk the last couple of weeks. Yesterday I went to town lake to blow off
some steam and moments before I got out of the car, this song was on the radio:

I hadn't listened to it in a while, it was a magnificent day on the lake and it was just what I
needed to put on repeat. Not an Eminem song to pound the pavement but a song of hope.
I needed hope.

So I put the song on repeat and for two miles (yes, only two) Ellie and I took in the magnificent
day, breathed in sunshine, smiled at strangers and I listened to these lyrics over and over...

Just say yes
Just say there's nothing holding you back
It's not a test
Nor a trick of the mind
Only love.

You're the only way to me
The path is clear
For G-d's sake dear... for G-d's sake dear...

Just say yes

Do you ever feel like there's this guy out there pulling strings in the universe against your favor?
I'm the first to say "Don't ask why! Just have faith!" But you know what, sometimes it's not that
easy. Sometimes there's a nagging voice in the back of your head saying "You can't do it. There's
no hope. You're not capable. No! No! No! Give up!!" I've listened to that for months. I've prayed
about it. I've been on my knees trying to figure it out. Nothing has changed.

Today, I realize: I can't change a thing. I know that. But I do have hope. Because if I imagine the
Master of the Universe saying "Stop running from me and start running to me" then I can know
peace. "It's not a trick of the mind, only love"

Wow... I've listened to this song for so long and never thought of it that way before.

Nothing in my current situation has changed. Only my heart. Instead of saying "I don't have the
ability" in this moment, I am giving myself no reservation. Maybe the fresh air cleared my head.
Maybe the people that smiled in return reminded me every minute detail in the universe
does matter.

Embrace whatever it is you have absolutely no control over today. You can't do a thing about it.
So why should we worry?

It's beautiful outside. I will find the good in today. You and me, both...


Rendog1977 said...

This is just what I needed to hear today. And goes along with what I wrote today.

joana_mty said...

I have had those experiences, but one thing that I found peace in, was Him (up there ^). I have rendered by all to Him and nothing has been more great. There is always going to be those voices and the surroundings where nothing has changed, and you say "Really??!", but is sometimes in the last moments where He does something. Hope!

AmyQ said...

Could I love this more? No. Completely beautiful. I love hearing your heart Carlie. Xooo