[This original post was published Dec 12, 2012. In updating my blog I ran across it and felt it hitting so close to home... not the pregnancy part, but everything else. :) Maybe you too?]
The trees lose their leaves and everything about it has an even bluer hue.
This time of year.
Isn't it ironic that about the time we're uncomfortable in this heat, we're gifted with a reprieve?
But it's true, isn't it? We're always seeking that which we don't have.
We're always craving balance in a life where that's only the ideal. We're always wanting to feel... something.
Nearing 3 years Johnny and I wanted a baby. The first three months I was pregnant were the most trying in my life, perhaps because expectations were so high. I had visions of the pure bliss it was supposed to be and the moment I had been given (on a silver platter) what I wanted for so long, I couldn't be content. I felt like crap, my business was crazy busy and I couldn't tell a soul that the reason I was so behind on work -- I had been given a gift I wanted so badly.
Life is full of paradoxes. Irony.
It's deep in our nature to want something other than what we have.
Gratitude solves all problems, my friend.
No matter where we are in life, let's find peace in what we have been given. Find joy knowing that exactly where we are is exactly where we should be. It's no easy lesson to learn...
As I am well into my 2nd trimester I am thankful I rarely battle fatigue or nausea. For every one of you that has gifted me patience and an ounce of your courage, I am in debt to you. My learning curve at this "Mother thing" is pretty steep. The good news for me is I walk on a path well-tread.
The good news for you? So do you. We are never alone. Instead of craving change, let's just be content to tread this tide for a bit. It's right where we are supposed to be...