Tuesday, May 12

How to Be Alone

Somewhere along this journey of becoming a wife then mom and business owner and picture taker... I forgot why I began this blog. If I only post photos, where is the beauty in that? I hide from words because they are so near and dear to my heart. I hide from words because, in as much as they come easily to me, I fear I am exposing too much.

I can't tell you how much I survive on inspiring others. You might go as far as to say it is selfish of me to make people happy.... because I get so very much fulfillment from it! It is as much a part of my DNA to believe with every fiber of my being the glass is half-full.

In terms of Myers-Briggs, I always test half down the enfj/infj spectrum. (In relationship to the Chinese, my birthday says I am a pig. :) What does half e/half i even mean? I'm half introverted, half extroverted, to the core. Half teacher/ half counselor. So I have my extroverted moments, when I have a camera in my hand, when I have a purpose, but I always crave deep conversation one-on-one and find it challenging to make small talk in large groups when we can really get down to the nitty gritty of life, talk about courage and great books, a recipe that makes my toes curl or how I wish I really could dance.

This is for you.

Let's be honest. Even in a relationship there are moments of alone-ness. We must learn to be whole in who we are, before we can ever expect someone else to love us. We must learn to love ourselves.

So here is to alone.
The beauty in lonely.

"Lonely is a feeling that breathes easy and weightless and lonely is healing if you make it..."

xo, always


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